
Until now, I have not spoken of it. In organizing meetings or talks
to community groups or rally speeches, I held back. The task was to
build the antiwar movement, and I worried that talking too much about
my fear might undermine that. People need to feel empowered, hopeful,
I told myself; we should be talking about the potential of the movement.

" . . . That hasn't changed. We have to continue to build the movement,
which has enormous potential over the long-term to turn this society
away from war and profit, toward peace and the needs of people."
But I no longer think we can build such a movement by suppressing or
keeping quiet about this fear we feel. In the past few weeks I have
seen this fear so clearly in the eyes of my friends, heard it in the
nervous comments of strangers, and been surprised by it in the unease
with which even many supporters of the war talked.
I knew it when this past weekend my father -- a conservative, Republican
small-town businessman and World War II-era veteran -- tried to convince
me that Bush wouldn't really start a war, that he was bluffing, just
being cagey. Even my father was scared of the plans of the man he voted
for.
I think people all over the world whose capacity to feel has not been
occluded by power or hate are feeling something like this. It is not
a fear of terrorists or weapons of mass destruction or even necessarily
of this particular war, as frightening as all those things may be. I
believe it is a fear of something more difficult to pin down, a fear
of the forces that will be unleashed when the United States defies the
world and launches a war that -- while couched in talk of protecting
people from threats -- is so obviously about projecting U.S. power to
achieve a kind of world domination that was never possible before.
Bush and his advisers proudly announce that they have cast aside any
commitment to collective security, real diplomacy, and international
law. Will the United Nations survive? Will there be anything left of
an international system when Bush and his gang are finished? Will there
be any hope for the peaceful settlement of disputes? Of course none
of these concepts has ever been fully implemented, and we all know that
the international institutions have flaws. But will anyone feel safer
in a world in which the law comes only from the blade of the American
sword, permanently drawn?
his fear I feel is not just of power-run-amok but of an empire with the
most destructive military capacity that has ever existed -- an empire
with thermobaric bombs and cruise missiles, cluster bombs and nuclear
"bunker busters." No matter how hard the government works to
try to keep us from seeing the results of those weapons -- and no matter
how much the news media cooperate in that project -- we understand how
many civilians could die under the onslaught of these horrific weapons.
They can censor the pictures, but not our imaginations.
This fear I feel is not just of the unchecked power of the United States
but of the fact that Bush and his advisers seem to think they understand
their own power and can control it. It is the arrogance of virtually unlimited
power married to lifelong privilege. It is hubris, and in a nuclear world
there is no sin that is potentially more deadly.
This is the fear that I feel, that I think so many of us feel. The Bush
administration wants us to be afraid, but remain quiet about it. Our power
will come not from denying the fear but in confronting, and overcoming,
it. So, we must speak of it, not to scare others but to bring us closer
together. Our only hope against the fear is in each other, in our organizing,
in our resistance. And if we can confront our fears, we can confront this
empire.
If you feel this fear and aren't sure that, in the face of it, you can
remain involved -- or get involved for the first time -- in the antiwar
movement, all I can say is, "Where else will you go?" If we
retreat into our private spaces, thinking we can hide, we will find out
quickly that this fear will follow us everywhere.
Our only way out is together, in public, facing not only our fears but
the fears that others will project onto us, and inviting them to join
us. It will be painful. It will carry with it certain risks. But it is
the only way we can hang onto our own humanity.
I am scared, and I need help. We all do. Let us pledge not to let each
other down -- for our own sake, and for the sake of the world.
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Robert Jensen is a founding member of the Nowar Collective (www.nowarcollective.com),
a journalism professor at the University of Texas at Austin, and author
of "Writing Dissent: Taking Radical Ideas from the Margins to the
Mainstream." He can be reached at rjensen@uts.cc.utexas.edu.
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